Poems

2004-02-25T06:02:00.000-08:00

Golden Lantern

Though enwrapped
Within this darkness
I see your light and weep
As this pain melts away.

The cold ice returns when you leave my side.
The burning Phoenix weeps as we are
Pulled apart and torn away
From our destiny.

To be without you is to be
Lifeless. My only hope for
Resurrection is the hope that
We shall live to see each other in th
Coming moments within this
Burning cavern.

As you leave my side, all the
Lights go out. My pain is only gouged
By the lack of your embrace
But I know the world also needs you,
For you are the Eternal Angel.

Always giving life to the lifeless.
Always weeping for the world.
Always showing mercy to those who have been
Unworthy of your love.
I am unworthy of such love and beauty.

All I feel is a burning light within my black
And broken soul.
You are my dream full of sweet visions.
You are everything to me and this cruel world.

2003-06-24T08:37:00.000-07:00

Black Roses

Growing in a field of misery
In a desolate world.
I find an angel weeping for me
As I stumble upon this field
Of black roses.

What is there to lose?
Now that my disintegrating soul
Is no more. Picking these roses
Fills my quota. My quota of newfound
Pain that can never feel as horrible and torturous as life.

7 I have picked.
One for each Deadly Sin.
As I drift now further
In this field of black roses
My heart is joyus to know.

Knowing that forever more,
To the Universe and beyond,
I shall be known not as
A lost soul who wept for humankind,
But as the Soul of the Black Roses.
by me

2003-05-24T18:46:00.000-07:00

Escape

DOES it matter?---living to see the next day?...
For people are always mourning,
The deaths of those who kept living
As they stood by never seeing your pain
Whilst they played their games all day.

Does it matter?---living to see the horror?...
There’s so much that can make you cry;
And people never see you die,
When they come to you what you may gain
As you leave them to their own terror.

Do they matter?---the very ones who laugh?...
You can try and escape from their guises,
But they will always succeed when left to their own devices;
For they know they’ll never be sought
And no one will see you in your blood bath.
by me

2003-05-18T14:38:00.000-07:00

Your Memories Pain

Standing within my void
Full of despair, misery, and crazed
Happiness never found. As I burn
My candle, I float upon these
Hollow waters. My Soul is now yours.

My tears fueling my despair and
My flight within your world. The
Absence of faith, the absence of love,
The absence of my mourning soul.
My heart is now yours.

Don't come near me, I cannot be
Saved from your red tears that
Has given me death. Do not weep,
My wounds heal only with this black
Sea's tortures. My Soul is now yours.

I lay now far from your world
In your heart my memory turns black
And unforgotten. My heart is now yours.
by me

2003-05-02T13:42:00.000-07:00

My Sweet Angel

Death. What is Death?
Death is a euphoric release of pain.
The Sweet Angel with beautiful, black and red
Velvet wings that comes bearing the Divine Gift.

So many do not see my pain.
As I sit here looking stoic and calm,
Inside I feel only pain and wish so mush
To cry all my pain away, but the brutality is so endless
That it would be impossible to ever release it all.

You don't see me, you don't even know I'm
Here. For all this blood that runs in me
Wants out, yet this beautiful vampire will not, ...
Come to me my love, my life only holds
Pain that could be so easily severed by your estatic bite.

Yet you don't seem to want to relinquish to me that treasured
And divine gift that you give out to so many
Who don't even see your powers and effects as a gift,
But as a curse which must, at all costs, be avoided.
But I see your true magick and healing.

As I lay here with my back to the wind,
I see the world of happiness that lay beyond.
I drift into peaceful sleep and dream of you.
I turn, falling deeper and deeper into the eternal sleep.
I am finally free.
by me

2003-05-02T13:40:00.000-07:00

Among the Darkness

Treasures among the darkness
That guide me through this strange dream
That has trapped me within the unknown
And deliver me to your side.

You smile and reach for my hand.
Yet I am still lost all alone and as
I search your face, I see only a
Void. You love not me, I realize, but...

My cruel enemy has captured you in her trap.
Why fall to her trickery when I am right here by your side?
With your own soul, mine yearns to be, yet you push me away.
And I fall further and further into this void full of fears.

We slip away and as I try to
Come back, you turn away and
Go towards her, the one filled
With poison so potent it could destroy...

Worlds apart and worlds together.
As I awaken from this horrid nightmare,
I see you by my side, I feel you,
I hear you breathing, I continue loving you.
by me

2003-05-02T13:39:00.000-07:00

Divine Forbidden Dream

As I lay here
With my eyes locked away from the world
Drifting slowly into that
State of true meaning.

I wonder what may lie
Within that divine realm of
Knowledge untapped by so many
Souls who thirst for its truth.

To my surprise I see only
Your face and feel only your undying
Love which is unbreakable by any span of
Time that would otherwise demolish all.

As I dream of us being together,
Within myself I know that it could
Never be, for you love not me, as I love you,
But some other spirit who does not appreciate your...

True divinity and priceless value that is
Coveted by my aching heart which will
Not obey my mind. It only yearns for your
Soul that seems so far from my grasp.

Wake me please, from this forbidden heaven and hell.
For I fear if I stay here, I may never return to your world.
by me

2003-05-02T13:37:00.000-07:00

Darkness

As I crawl in the darkness
My heart and my soul guide me
Through all the pain and undeserved
Punishment that is given out so quickly by you.

As I struggle in this materialistic
World that seems to care nothing
About its future. This world which
Brings those who have progressed so far, down.

As I lay here looking up at the sky,
I wonder whether anyone else has
Found my sanity, lost for so long.
Now I must seek those who may understand...

As I have grown within this body
That everything happening is not by chance,
But that we must turn away from our busy
Preoccupations that hold us back from our spiritual evolution.

Do not leave my side for
You are my only hope left in this
Universe, so vast and endless,
That will not seem to answer.
by me

2003-05-02T13:35:00.000-07:00

The Treasure

Treasures are gifts.
Treasures are valuable.
Treasures are extraordinary.
Treasures are rare.

You are a treasure of this world.
A rare find with value beyond knowledge.
Do not tarnish yourself,
You will only turn to junk like so many others.

Over these years you will become even rarer.
Though you may leave my grasp,
I can see your beauty growing
As an ancient, treasured wine grows in taste.

Do not leave me without the knowledge that
You are special, you are unique, you are a source of wealth
Beyond the vastness of the Universe and its dimensions.
You are my treasure.
By me